Minggu, 26 September 2010

You don't talk much, I like you

Call me pathetic, but I really wanna be like Carl and Ellie

it's all started when they were kids

and then the puppy love starts to grow

then like any other couples in love will do, they got married

the fairytale continues..

until their hair turns into white

people say that age doesnt really matter when it comes into love. but yes, it does.

Ellie leaves the world first, so that Carl's alone now

but their simple life will always be the adventure that Carl won't forget

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it... I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

~Well, it's taken from one of my favourite movies, Ten Things I Hate About You. I've watched this movie zillion times, but I never get bored of it.

Comfort Zone

Now i know why baby cries when he borns. It's because he already feels comfort in his mommy's tummy. It's his comfort zone. He doesn't wanna come out to the unknown strange world. Since the world he's been living is ah-mazing, he doesn't have to do anything but he's already be loved. Who doesn't wanna stay in that kind of world? While the other world that's waiting for his presence is the cruel cruel one. He has to fight for his existence in that new world. The new world is full of stranger, the unfamiliar faces that he can't rely on. So that is why he cries. He cries because he's pushed to come out of his comfort zone and fight in the new world.

And that's just what's happening to me now. It's not that i dont like my new world, it's fun and i'm so excited to see what's coming next in my life. But the previous world is just so cozy and comfortable, so that i still miss it over and over again. I will always pick my hometown rather than the new place. Cause my hometown is full of familiar faces that i will always miss.

But now i know that is just a matter of time to be comfort in this new place i'm in. Because even babies can do it, then so can I.

Minggu, 19 September 2010

That's What Friends Are For

A few months ago while i was in highschool, it was my senior year. and i was so worried about college stuffs. i really wanted to study in University of Indonesia. it had been my dream for so long. it was after SIMAK. i applied for faculty of medicine in UI, but it wasn't my luck, i didn't get in. i got rejected. i was so down when i heard the news. i cried and i became doubtful about my dream. i thought that getting in to that university was far away from my ability.

But then my friends and my teacher supported me. i became a hard-worker. i studied all the time. there was no time for having fun while i was trying to reach my dream. and then, two of my good friends, Faradina Alifia Maizar and Raihan Arlan, they took me to Ratu Plaza. they wanted to buy some dvds, and they asked me to came along too. so there i went, for that one day, i tried to have some fun with my friends.

Turned out that they have a favorite dvd store. the sellers there, they already knew them. cause Raihan and Dina oftenly come to that store and buy bunch of dvds. so when i went there, i was surprised that the sellers welcomed us very warmly. then they (the sellers and Raihan and Dina) talked about some stuffs. i was quiet all the time. and then, one seller, asked "Ini kalian bertiga pada masuk mana kuliahnya?" i didn't answer that question. oh, Dina got in to faculty of economy University of Indonesia through SIMAK, and Raihan also got in to faculty of medicine in UI. they both got in to UI through SIMAK. but i didn't.

Then Dina answered "masuk UI." then the seller "oooh! hebat hebat! ini yg cowok masuk UI juga?" "iyaa." and then the seller asked again "kalo ini yang satu lagi?" i knew that she was talking about me, but the minute i was trying to answer that question, Dina answered "dia masuk UI juga"

I didn't say anything again after that. i dont know why, maybe i was so sensitive back then, but i felt touched by what she did to me. remember, i was so down when it happened, i was questioning my ability to get accepted in UI. so, every support that i get from anyone would mean a lot to me.

Well, i had been studying everyday until it was the time for UMB test. it was my second chance to get in to UI. i got the confidence back cause i studied very hard. but when the announcement day came, again i got a bad news. i didnt got in. i was rejected again. you could never know how down i was back then. also knowing that SNMPTN would be held a week from then, and it was my last chance and i hadnt prepared anything for that test.

I lost my spirit to study again, but then thanks to my friends, and also my teacher, they supported me. Raihan and Dina, they sent me messages via bbm, the text showed how much they supported me. i was gonna post in here in my blog, but then i decided to keep it personal. but after i read that texts, i started to study again.

And then, finally, good news! i got in to UI! and that was not just because of me, it was all because of the people behind me that keep supporting me when i was so doubtful about myself. so all i want to say is thank you, thank you for believing me. you guys have seen my best while i was at my worst. and for that, i owe you big time. so once again, thank you!